Taking things easy..... NOT!!

I wanted to start off with my entry-to-entry basis runt of being busy.. but I just hate to say I am.. subconsciously, I just did.. *darn it!*

Oh well.. what had happened to me for the past.. errr.. few.. err.. since my last entry..

Nothing... nothing.. and nothing.. oh.. yes!!

Yesterday went for break fasting with fellow vandies.. Its good to get to see them again.. Got to meet Izni accidentally.. and of course, she joined us after..

arghhh!!! not in the mood telling without pictures!!! yes.. i didn't bring my camera.. I was from work and came back just enough to change.. *Darn it, i'm writing about my work again.. *

what's good to write now..

i guess.. just some rambling of what i'm feeling right now..

Feeling stressed.. CHECK
Feeling serabut.. CHECK
Pening.. CHECK
Tension.. CHECK
Need someone to talk to.. CHECK
Need some excitement.. CHECK
Need a vacation.. CHECK

These are all caused by a lot of things.. Too much that I don't know how to share.. how laa? I'm so good at keeping it.. horrible at sharing it.. But some word of advice would definitely be.. good.. i guess.. It won't help that much i tell you that cause i am sooooo degil.. I am.. really!!

i've been thinking alot of what is it like living my own.. I have always and still secretly, want to live my life by my own.. I want to live where i have to pay own bills, find my own way to eat, buy my own groceries.. and even decorate my own home.. I don't have to live by other peoples expectation.. yes.. just be myself at my own place..

But how? my work place is only 30-40 minutes away.. i don't think my parents would agree me leaving this place just for the sake of 5 minutes drive.. I mean, i just need to pay the gas now and if I do live outside, i have to pay a whole lot of things.. but.. when can i have my own place, by myself? where can i have this, self-defined freedom?

Tell you what.. this is how i imagine my daily days if i were to live alone..

wake up, shower.. grab something to drink out of my small fridge *imagine it's not Ramadhan*.. grab a fruit, biscuit whatever if i'm that hungry.. think of stuff that i need to cook later today.. go work.. come back, forgot to do grocery, order food.. or just eat what ever is inside my fridge.. than go to bed.. Weekend, bangun lambat.. no one will perli me if i got up late pun.. pasang lagu so that where ever i am i can listen to it.. possibly at living room.. it is a small house anyways.. so definitely will dengar.. kemas rumah.. kalau malas, tak yah buat.. *who cares, i'm living by myself kan?* do some light grocery.. masak a decent but nice food.. once in a while, try new dishes.. kalau tak sedap, buang and order food.. kalau sedap, makan and hope to do it again soon for other people to taste.. lepak and lepak.. and lepak lagi till my butt hurts.. move around.. and just have a quiet day with some music.. No need to talk or entertain people..

*as im writing, i'm day dreaming of how good it is*....