nigete!!

It means run!! in japanese..

I was raised in a normal family.. I used to say i was raised in a not normal family.. Just because i wasn't aware of others.. but now, I can say i have a normal family.. With ups and downs of course.. Before, i was always the one who kept on running from my own problems.. I knew but i don't know how to over come it.. Or maybe i was just running away from that fact.. I refuse to accept some facts that I rather not think of than solving it.. And for awhile, i was that girl who never really sits and think of what should and should not be done..

I hate thinking i guess.. Its too depressing in a way.. realizing this, everyone in my family kept on reminding me not to run away from problems.. Hook or by crook, i have to face it.. taking their advise, i did.. It was hard especially those which didn't end like i want it to.. "But that's life" i remind myself.. We can't get everything we want but we can try.. Losing trying is much better than losing without even trying..

Currently..
I was that girl again.. I wanted to sit, think and solve.. But I have this mentality that, why should I? and all those "why" questions.. Alhamdulillah.. I am back on my feet started to rationalize things again.. Yeap.. nothing in this world we can run from.. it will come back, just like a boomerang.. how hard you throw it to get far from you, it will turn around and find you again..

It's not wrong to let it be for awhile.. Let yourself loosen up before facing it.. It is even much better so that you can think things properly, rationalize them, and in the end, decide something..

So i was saying.. was in dilemma before.. I tried to just accept it, tried to just swallow it, tried to run from it.. and that last thing i tried, slapped me in the face and told me "you're running away miss!" i was.. And yes, hook or by crook, I have to do it.. I have to think about it.. With a lil bit of help here and there.. I have decided..

And now, I can't wait~

Yes you might not understand what i am saying or what i am referring to.. but let me tell you this.. Things that we are trying to run from doesnt mean its going to be all disastrous.. It can be something good but we cant see that coming.. everything in this world is 50-50.. it can be good, it can be the other way around.. so why cant we just go for it and see what's served for us.. I used to say nothing in life is fair.. but HE is always fair to all.. HE knows whats better for us..

make sense?