Saturday, October 31, 2009

Stand Up!!!!

So last weekend, i had a blast at the stand up comedy.. it was worth it!!

if there are anymore to come, i'll make sure to share with you earlier.. though, most of the performance seems to be in Zouk.. so.. i'm a bit reluctant to go.. Unless someone could tell me it's okei in a way, by any chance..

they made fun of a whole lot of stuff and it was super duper fun!!

gosh i so wanna watch it again..

onto something totally different and more current rather than basi punya story..

I am single people.. just not available.. off market okei.. yea yea.. u can see pictures and stuff but there's more complicated stuff than just a bunch of scandalous pictures.. *sigh*

like i said before.. why can't i just live my life as how i like? buat itu salah.. buat ini lagi agak betul.. bile dah buat something almost like 'ini', pun salah.. so how? better i buat ajer the way i want it, correct? to h**l what people wanna say.. i don't give a crap though i do a bit laa =D

what i can say as for now, i'm happy with my decision and just shut up!...

"NEVER tell me I'M WRONG..
If you see me happy and having a good time with what I have and doing...
cause if you do, i'd tell you

Saturday, October 24, 2009

lumrah hidup... random title obviously.. =p

dah lame tak tulis blog gune bahasa.. sometimes bosan jugak tulis blog dlm bahase omputih nih.. sbb i tend to jage my grammar.. tak mau laa tulis2, grammar kantoi.. bughok bona...=)

was really bosan so cam bukak itu ini on the web.. pusing2 blog.. main2 ngan facebook.. and baru realize how fb cam best jugak laa main game die.. tp mase nih jer laaa.. come one time, i will be damn malas to bukak facebook langsung2... but as of now, i'm on it almost everynite before tido and before pegi keje.. mind you but i don't get internet access on my desktop at work.. intranet jer to get mails.. lain2, haprak.. so nak taknak, layan keje laaa all the way..

last nite the girls pegi sambut jurai's birthday *happy birthday girl!!!!!!!* i didn't join.. not feeling that well.. actually dah brape hari dah tak betul.. weng2... betul.. mungkin too stressed out or penat.. low blood pressure ke.. ape2 laa.. but this weekend, i'm all hyped to do some fun stuff.. I hope..

On thursday, i was listening to and diorang interview these people who are comedians and they;ll performing a show today and tomorrow.. they call themselves MACC; Malaysian Association of Chinese Comedian.. They seem ok and as they were promoting it, i was influenced, called the PJ Live Arts... Long story short, I'm going to the show today *yeayyy!!* i loveeee the part i do that on impromptu style.. gimme the.. excitement =D

And tomorrow, I have date!! yeayyy!!! no... not that kinda date.. A date with a friend to go out for photography session.. yeahhh!!! we'll see how it comes out.. He should be good laa... I know he is.. (o',^o) and i'm kinda excited about it too cuz i've been longing a photo session.. if not of myself, me taking good pictures jugak.. Tho i'm lack of gears.. Like, i only have a point & shoot but a good one.. banyak berjase okeii!!!

fuhhh.. dari tak tahu nak tulis ape, i got to write a lot and ideas are pouring in my head...

nextt... i've been wanting to write something buat me think of life.. how it's darn hard for some and easy for some.. I've been updated by a friend of her life.. Seriously.. Sangat kesian.. like.. susah gile if i were to live her life.. Tapi, being me, walaupun die tak mintak, i'm giving her a hand on which ever i can.. though i don't think i helped much but still.. hope it will at least give her the impression of there are people who cares and can help...

You are not alone...

then, read a note in facebook by a bro.. that totally gave me an impact jugak laa.. i malas lerr nak terang ape die tulis.. tp basically sangat menginsafkan..

kesimpulan yang saya boleh buat: bersyukur dengan apa yang ada, terima dugaan seadanya kerana hanya kau yang mampu melaluinya, and kalau rasa tak mampu, kembali padaNya..

Thursday, October 22, 2009

what other people think

I always believe to not think of what other people think of myself.. I will do what i want to do.. You don't like it, well.. deal with it!

but i realized, that was only some part of me acting that way.. the other part of me..

Live and force myself to live as what other people think of me or want me to be...

and i'm tired of pushing myself to be darn perfect...

or at least, to the eyes of other people who i want to please..

or was i?

i want to live as myself... not as what other people think i can be...

i.e. people think i am capable of making a big change.. i want to believe that, though i don't think so.. i don't.. but when i can't or i don't make that big change.. they'll look at me like a sore loser.. and i totally feel that way..

why can't people accept the fact that i am not what they think?

most importantly, why can't i just live up to what i feel rather than other peoples?

or is it, life is as such so we can grow up and be a better person?

but why isn't it making me feel like a better person?

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Miles To Go Before I Sleep

Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village, though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there's some mistake.
The only other sound's the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

-Robert Frost-

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Tell me if...

Tell me if I'm wrong..

If i did some stupid move in a decision..

But don't shunt me and take charge..

Tell me if I'm wrong..

If i should be seeing a situation in other directions rather than one..

But don't force me to see one and only direction, especially if it's to your benefit..

Tell me if I'm wrong..

If things get harder and i'm about to break when i shouldn't..

But don't tell me it will get harder and i won't be able to handle it..
*or i'd just crush your head instead =p*

Tell me if I'm wrong..

If I'm living my life gloomy and sluggish...

But don't drag me to not live life that way.. Sometimes I just need it and sometimes, you need to guide me out..

but NEVER tell me i'm wrong..

If you see me happy and having a good time with what I have and doing...

cause then, i'll tell you, YOU ARE WRONG....

p/s: this has nothing to do with anyone.. ANYONE... it's out of random... =)

Saturday, October 10, 2009

some stuff

Things have been different nowadays... Okei.. different is not the exact word laa but i could say normal laaa.. Nothing much to think of cept for daily problems like almost every normal person would have to go through.. I do hope this would maintain for quite awhile.. I'd like this monotenous wave length for awhile and am enjoying it in a way.. =)

some random thoughts of mine.. I realized some stuff you can't get over it, you just have to get through it.. some stuff you can't teach them, but you have to let it be learnt.. some stuff you can't forget, but you just have to keep it as a memory.. some stuff you just can't forgive and forget, but you can always just forgive.. some stuff you cant say it out loud, but you could always show it.. and some you can't show it, but you can say it out loud =p

and personally, if some stuff you can't cry it out, you just have to smile =) and eventually, the after effect will come naturally.. i think i've written this once but a curve on the face can set if not everything, some stuff straight..

if you still haven't notice, i have tonnes "some stuff" written in this entry, hence, the title =D

fuuuhh... entry yang agak membosan kan... lalalalalalalalala~~~