It pisses me off

It pisses me off the most when people become so depressed about themselves not being able to do something..

It pisses me off when people look down on themselves..

It's just pathetic.. who else should have the confidence in you than yourselves? At least the first person to have the confident is you yourself.. isn't it?

I know some do not have that high of confidence.. We are not perfect people.. we are born with flaws anyways.. It gives us space to be humble and to correct our mistakes.. But bragging about your weakness is not a good idea.. I hate it when people tell me "oh, i can't do that.. it's just impossible" Being a normal person, I'd say "you can.. try it out first.. You'll never know.. you might even be born for it" if that person keeps on denying and keeps on waving that white flag... oh God help me to be patient or i'll just get angry.. seriously!

geram tau~! you come to me to say something you're bad at, for what? do you want me to agree to what you said or do you want me to give you support? I just can't deal with people who accepts failure even before trying..


You know what pisses me off the most when it comes to this?

People who give alasan bertubi-tubi.. one alasan after another.. Ya Allah... rase nak cepuk jer sorang-sorang.. stop giving alasan and just do it will ya?? You have to try it out first and then, you know whether you can do it or it's just not your forte.. But please!!! don't retreat before going to war..

what else pisses me off..

Yes.. I hate quarreling, war and fights.. Just because I know I am very good at it and am not proud of it.. Therefore, I've taught myself to keep it and bersabar.. I can be quite violent and do have a bit of angry management.. Dulu2.. since I'm in high school, I know I can't be and I know I don't want to.. Though someone triggered me once.. *urghh* no no... don't want to go there dahh.. horrible horrible...

Enuf with this.. I can go on with this list but this is one of those thats been bugging me lately.. It's all about patient..

*yoga pose*
hummmmmm~~~~

graduation and all the shabangs II

I didn't get to show you what i got for graduation!! :p

Thanks to Oya, Nad, Awatif, Zuljoe *eibeb*, Amelia, Noel for the graduation presents.. and special thank you to Aisamuddin for yours too.. Especially when I broke one of his presents /(oT.To)\ *sebab tuh kene ade special thank you :p*

Few days before commencement, I received an unexpected parcel.. I don't remember buying anything.. regardless, I went to pick it up.. I was so shocked to see the bracelet.. and it's so exotic too!! Aisamuddin showed me this bracelet before and i thought it was beautiful.. But to see it in my hand was better.. Unfortunately, I only got to wear it like.. 30 minutes before I carelessly dropped it while walking and broke it into half.. It's made out of wood kut.. and I was walking laju ke ape.. I have no idea but it did break into two.. And I was on my way to commencement!! *darn~*


Then 2 days after, I received another parcel.. this time.. I thought i knew but when i got another notification of another parcel.. i'm not sure what to think of.. Again, went to pick it up.. and there it was, a green-brown box with "Pro-flower" written on it.. Damn i was excited!! (o^,^o) It was a bouquet of irises.. they were still buds of unknown flower for me when first received it.. after 2 days, it bloomed and i got to know laaa.. They are awesome!! I am not a fan of flowers except tulips.. but someone proved I can like flowers than just tulips.. *hehe* The color of deep purple is marvelous! It's bold and some what elegant at the same time.. don't you think?

Thank you Aisamuddin...


On the day itself, I got the MSAV flowers .. carnations to be precise.. They are cute and soooo easy to take care of :p unlike the irises.. they don't need food to live longer.. :)

Thank you guys!


and, my favorites; TULIPS!! don't you think they are just more than pretty tulips? They give so much more than just what they look like.. the colors are so radiant and bright.. you can't stop yourself from smiling when looking at it.. Oya, Nad and Awatif got me the white-pink tulips and Zuljoe got me the mix tulips.. Nih buat aku sayang lagi korang nih!! :D oh and thanks Watip for the card too

Thanks kiddos!!


I just got to know Amelia.. She's working in Opry Mills, one of malaysian's favorite spot to shop *slain Wal-mart :p* But she's so nice and very friendly.. I invited her to Vandy so that she could feel more at home cause she's not that far from us pun but far from Malaysia.. But I never asked for anything from her .. the next day after commencement, she wanted to see me and wanted to give me something.. I was flattered but segan at the same time.. I love stuff from bath and body wash!! They are soo good!!

Thanks Amelia!


And last but not least, you've known this from my past entry.. Noel gave me these..


I am so happy to received these presents and wishes from every one.. Glace, family and friends.. Thank you so much.. thank you for being there for me when i'm under pressure.. thanks for giving me moral support..

thanks, thank you, thank you very much (o','o)

Graduation and all the shabangs

I know this story macam dah basi but i still want to write everything about it.. well.. almost..

SO.. 2 days before the big day.. Like every year.. the sophomores were busy organizing the farewell party for the seniors.. This year.. it was way different from what we had before.. the theme was Red Carpet and everyone dressed as if they are the star of the night.. Obviously, the seniors wore nothing but fabulous and remarkable clothes.. Though there were Best Dress Award for us.. its not that we're aiming for it but excitement of dressing up as the stars of the night..




We were driven, welcomed and ushered like stars i tell ya! Then there was the red carpet entrance.. with all the paparazzis', we can't stop smiling and even posing.. feeding their cameras with super stars poses :p It was the best night ever.. We thought it was going to be grand but not extravagant.. especially when we think we don't deserve it as much...


The night went on with buffet dinner, karaoke, and some other fun stuff.. The sophomores also gave us 3 cute cupcakes with our.. err.. i could say initials on it.. That was when I was touched the most.. then it was slideshow presentation.. It was so sweet and hilarious to see our old pictures.. takde laa that old but.. 4 years ago.. that's long enough.. :p

It was the greatest party ever! We had a blast!


On May 9th.. Me and other 21 comrades are officially done with our college years.. I finally graduated with Bachelor of Engineering *mechanical* and Mathematics.. Alhamdulillah! It was a mix of feelings alright.. Happy.. sad.. excited.. scared.. everything! Once my name was being called.. I felt a rush of excitement and to walk with the booklet, and cert inside with your name.. wow.. Bangat happy laa wa cakap lu!! :p



The thing was on Alumni Lawn.. yes, an open lawn.. Alhamdulillah the weather was great though it was quite hot as the sun shifted.. but the cold wind balanced it out.. To be sitting with other graduating seniors wearing in black robes was a bit nerve recking.. i don't have any reason to that though.. as i walk to the stage and on it to Chancellor Zeppos.. that was the most exciting moment.. I can hear the Malaysians shouting.. and my other friends shouting my name out loud.. It was the best feeling ever... Yet no one actually caught my picture on the stage.. :(

That day went on with tonnes of picture takings.. Definitely with some of my bestest people in Vandy.. I'll start with Zuljoe.. he's too nice to me that i have no words to say how i appreciate it alot! and he gave my favorite; tulips!! Qayyum.. I can't hold myself from not posting this picture.. just because.. you look so much like your dad laa weyh! *hahha* ok.. prolly a much more handsome version of him.. *winks* Then it was the whole clan of my favorite kiddos.. and they also gave tulips!!! They were so pretty!!!

And then it was us.. lately, we're so close and taking a picture together is a must..

I then treat myself with Strawberries at strawberry and champagne event.. I heard some say, the strawberries were specially ordered and taken care of for this event every year.. No wonder they were humongous and extremely delicious! Then, I was off to FGH to take a picture with Doctor Veillette.. he's our Dean so to say.. no.. associate dean.. *hehe*

The day is not over yet..

That night, we had our last farewell dinner, but this time, its with the parents.. Its more of a formal dinner and the sophomores.. again, presented us with another slideshow.. it was so nice and well done..

kudos guys!!

All in all, it was one of the best time ever in my life and I am definitely not planning to forget it..


*I have too many pictures to post.. enough for now.. i've posted some on flickr (o^,'o)*

alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah, I've graduated~ woohoo!!!!!



I'll update later when I'm a bit free.. :)

Last mctyiere dinner

So we went out again for dinner.. This time we went to one of our favorite places to eat.. no more potluck :)
This time we had bigger group.. It was like always; loud and loads of happiness and love.. *hahaha* we really did!! I mean we can just talk anything from serious issue to very pervert stories!! I mean it!! and yes! in front of those delicious food we ate.. :p Almost all of us are graduating and going back to where we belong.. It was a mix of feelings; sad, happy, excited and everything..

They are so fun to be with and never failed to make me entertain all the time.. Emily was also like a sister.cousin.best-american-girlfriend you could ever want... Kri is soo fun!!! she's a bit coo-coo :) and that's why i love her so much.. we didn't hang out as much but we always met on our way to class and stuff.. so it was good enuf.. As of plans after graduation.. Emily is... *what is she going to do after graduation??* I think she's trying to get a job.. Kristen, she's going to Korea to teach English.. And promised to visit me in Malaysia.. *weeeee!!*


Aun-drey is like a little brother to me sometimes... he might look big and strong but he has a very kind and gentle personality.. He's also so fun to be with and will never want to make you look sad, what else make u cry.. After graduation, he's also trying to get a job somewhere and probably continue grad school somewhere.. As of Aasritha, she's not graduating yet but she's going to Japan!! isn't that cool!!! its an exchange.study-abroad program and it will definitely be a blast for her.. She was a bit sad that day.. I mean, all her friends are graduating.. Obviously she would be upset.. but at least she got to be in Japan for a semester and just a semester to go for her graduation.. I'll miss her the most i think... She's so kind and caring to me.. how could i ever forget about her!!???


Zuljoe had been so extremely kind to me.. in comparison to what i've done to him.. aa.. let me check.. nothing??? *hahaha* it was a great thing that at least i know he had fun in McT cuz i was the one who kept on bragging about McT and how fun to stay there and yada yada.. Ritsuko will be going back to Japan in a week time if i'm not mistaken.. she's staying for her boyfriend's commencement and off she go.. i'll miss her too...


And the day after, Aasritha called me and asked if I could meet her for a few minutes.. I was on my way out to buy boxes, so i got to stop by her place.. she had me an early birthday + graduation present.. And it's so lovely!!! I like it!! I do believe in arometherapy and to get a pretty one is just so sweet... How could I not feel touched??

Thanks Aa-chan..